Issue 39,  Poetry

Speaker, Age 12

"Falling From Heaven" painting by JoAnneh Nagler

by Micah Cozzens

 

Sisters and I share a room and they say, Did you bite
my lipstick in half like a carrot?
No, I lie. I didn’t. I didn’t.
They let me sit on the lid-down toilet and watch
them try on smooth dresses
while they push their hair into cylinders,
coils that sproing hot and then, after teasing,
expand into voluminous gleaming,
lacquered to shine in the cheap lighting
of a movie theater, a bad restaurant,
a used car, and they speak a language
I understand in snatches—
Party, date, friends—but I itch
at what I sense they don’t say.
My presence necessitates constraints.
Or maybe it does not need to be said,
what they take for granted—
that it is good to be pretty, to be wanted,
and that all this is innocent, except
there is the sense that one day it will lead to—
What did they call it? Sex?
and that when they appear with eyes lined in glitter and shine,
and their dresses are potent and red, they become
a different sort of person than I am.
I act, but they appear,
and this differentiation has a chemical smell,
perfume and odorized desire,
and I used to escape outside to avoid it,
but now I linger in the bathroom and inhale.
After they leave, I light a match in the wake of sisters’ hairspray,
and I blaze in the bathroom mirror, briefly.

Micah Cozzens is a PhD candidate studying Creative Writing at Ohio University. Her work has appeared in Inscape magazine and the Rat’s Ass Review. Her first full-length poetry collection, Emily and Other Poems, is expected in 2026 from By Common Consent press. 

JoAnneh Nagler is the author of Stay with Me, Wisconsin (Coyote Point Press), Naked Marriage (Skyhorse Publishing); How to Be an Artist Without Losing Your Mind, Your Shirt, or Your Creative Compass (W.W. Norton); and The Debt-Free Spending Plan (HarperCollins), two of which were Amazon Top-100 titles.  Her books have been featured in The New York TimesCosmopolitanThe Huffington PostEssence Magazine, Medium.com, etc., as well as many journals, including New Haven Review, The Brussels Review, Persephone, Glimmer Train and more. She is a reader for Ploughshares, and her work has been supported by The Bread Loaf Writers Conference and Stanford University’s Creative Writing Program. www.AnArtistryLife.com

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