• Poetry

    Two Poems by Patrick Mullen-Coyoy

    Ariana Grande Guts a Fierce Deity

    Ariana enters  into the final day of her novena
       masticates jagged prayers between her teeth
               until her fledgling tongue quiets
                                             into soft murmurations
    she reaches the threshold       genuflects
                 enters into this cathedral of vices
           where so many before have sought asylum
    she offers her pésame to the spirits
                                                          filling the aisles
    these ghosts of trauma past         
    echoing forth
                   to bear witness to their fierce deity
    her staccato stilettos fill the silence
              their reverb ricocheting off tile and stone
    like so many bullets in her onlookers’
                                                 emptied eye sockets
    reaching the altar     she raises hands up
                  to the moon above this city of her dead
    commands the crowd
                                   light me up
                                   bind me up
    touch it                     touch it                   touch it
                                         she lays her body down
                                                    and their hands do
                                                                    adorn her
    gouging and gashing
                                        this self-declared goddess
    of American excess                  painting caravans
    of bloodletting   across the pale 
    canvas
                                                               of her larynx
                                                      and their hands do
                                                                      adore her
    cracking open her chest
    releasing bloody melisma
                                 of lung      and heart      and rib
    a testament to the violence endured
                       in the journey from field to mountain
           valley to river
    these are the sins endured by her kingdom
                                                             made manifest
    tracks of skin flayed penitential
                                   touch it
                        crown of barbed wire and laceration
                                   touch it
    the sacrifice of a body rendered
    into an exquisite corpse
                 the promise of salvation if only they will
                                              perform this litany and
                                  touch it
                                  touch it
                                  touch it
    the spirits bear her up
                                            like a contorted melody
    throats aching with the memory of
                                                            righteous fury
    finally        loose in death       finally          
    visible
                                   in the threnody of their cries
    here at last lies their remittance   a debt repaid
    in the form of a diva offered up
                                      of her own volition
    bathing this darkest  isthmian night of the soul
    in the refracted sounds of this
                                                     frenetic purgatory
    moonlight pooling          dismantled
                in the shattered wreckage of her hands
    Ariana
                                   fills the threads of her lungs
                   bites her lip
                                         and breaks open the sky

    her wail rends the moon from its observatory
    begs it to descend upon the prison of these
                                                                           walls
    and in turn     the moon rebukes her mantle
                                                         echoes the call
    vows to stand by no longer
                                      and plummets to the earth
                                               with celestial lethality

    the spirits bask for mere moments in this
                                                       ruined moonlight
    ultraviolet reflections filling in the details   lost
    to borders   and disappearances    and archives
    before exiting the memories
                          of where the cathedral once stood

    dust settling on their skin
                           their tongues begin to form words
    not spoken in weeks    decades     centuries
    as they welcome themselves back
                they set out to build their own sanctuary