Three Poems by John Findura
“Nineteen Minutes Ago”
This morning I am here
Nineteen minutes ago we might have met
But we missed each other, somehow
It is raining very hard but there is no thunder
Where there is no thunder there are few thoughts of you
Instead in their place is a stop-motion film
Of wooden hands playing the piano
Think of that – those wooden fingers on those ivory keys
Pictures of a famous actor with a bad haircut
An actress playing three roles in the same film
None of them are stop-motion like the wooden hands
I read a book about volcanoes
And the insistence of lava over everything else last night
And as you know if it didn’t happen there it doesn’t happen here
Or maybe the reverse, by now
It happens somewhere where I have such joy in my heart
So much it guides my wooden fingers over the keys
As if I am in the film now
As if the camera could possibly capture me
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“The Last Straw”
My dog is downstairs
laying on the floor, dying
next to her water bowl
with her head on a pillow
We took the kids to a zoo
today and fed a giraffe
I am now upstairs, laying
in my bed next to a tower
of books, with a damaged liver
I too am dying, but slower
She stopped eating, my dog,
days ago and looks at us
with the hopeful expression
of a dog who knows she’s a good dog
Like she’s saying it’s okay
it’s okay, I’m just not hungry anymore
My liver is diseased but I
can’t feel it, I can’t even tell
My doctor and the vet looked
at me in the same sad way
saying this is the last straw
I thought there’d be more straws
for both of us, but there’s nothing
left to drink, I guess and I don’t
even know how I got here anymore
_______
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“I Shake Like an Apple”
Yellow powdered mouth, _______again
_______A holy something
Already devoured
Already in my mouth
_______
A pill dissolved under my tongue
Smeared residue on my lips
This holy something _______on my lips, again
_______
I taste like devour
Shake like an apple
_______
Oh holy something, my mouth again
Calm me like you do
Make me familiar
Do something with my core
_______
I run my hands over my face and think of something
All things at the same time
My yellow powdered mouth forms words
You do not hear _______that I’m not sure I spoke
_______
Stop but don’t stop
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John Findura is the author of the poetry collection Submerged (Five Oaks Press, 2017). He holds an MFA in Poetry from The New School, an M.Ed in Professional Counseling, and is currently a doctoral student studying Educational Technology Leadership at New Jersey City University. His poetry and criticism appear in numerous journals including Verse; Fourteen Hills; Copper Nickel; Pleiades; Forklift, Ohio; Sixth Finch; Prelude; and Rain Taxi. A guest blogger for The Best American Poetry, he lives in Northern New Jersey with his wife and daughters.
© LIT Magazine Issue #33, 2019